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My heart has been broken so many times, so quickly, by my fiancé,

It’s like she wants to torture me, actions black, words white, I’d rather be on grey,

I love her, anxiety all night, the tightness, the tension,

Have to mainline black tar heroin, tried coke, fentanyl, too many to mention, 

The sadness has overtaken me, the sadness has complete control,

I haven’t any reprieve, no trust, only betrayal, only the opioids to extol,

I love you, I’ve realized I haven’t any choice,

I’ve tried to move on, I’ve tried it all,

I’ve tried to get over you, endless tears are the emotional spall,

My soulmate, 

Her heart, decides my whole fate,

I feel constricted, I feel a slave to the hopeless,

It’s based upon facts, actions, reality - scared to ever be dope-less,

Kim has prevented me from committing suicide, Kim has single-handedly prevented me from gone,

I’ve no one else, her actions, mores than anyone else, has allowed me to see another dawn,

I owe my current existence to her, I owe her each breath I continue to take,

Everyone has sweet nothings to say, empty, so many more than a few are fake, 

Thank you Kim, thank you from the entirety of my being,

When I need someone the most, you’re always there, omnipotently seeing,

I love you Elise, even as destruction of our relationship ensues per your decisions,

Per your mother’s desires, all as I gasp, drowning in quicksand, desperately praying for revisions,

Each action, no accident, no mistake, over and over and over again,

The message loud and clear, I’m weak as I pretend to be the strongest of men, 

I’m caving, heroin my only reprieve,

Shooting it, no more wiping my nose with my sleeve,

I, as most, as all, continue to choose the lesser of two evils, 

All as my ex-fiance continues to string me along in life’s most difficult upheavals…