An eternity of chances slip like sand from my grip
Up the creek without a paddle on a sinking ship
Bad maps, destination lost on this trip
One bullet in the chamber, got two in the clip
Taskmaster monkey always crackin’ the whip
On my back, too afraid of falling to flip
How’s a man to start a relationship
When he gets his hopes up only to see them dip?
They call me paranoid, pessimist, a little too plain
Poison in my blood and a little insane
And I know most everyone has felt this pain
But that don’t mean shit cuz I can’t be trained
To accept the condition in which I live
Too tired to take but I don’t wanna give
Heart’s so cracked it acts like a love-sieve
And people wonder why I ain’t communicative
Don’t give no chance to pure romance
No joy dance livin’ in these pants
Eyes won’t see, feet won’t move
Skin don’t feel, my soul don’t groove
Too many days spent tryin’ to live the lie
I wonder why don’t I lay down and die?
Why don’t you just hold on a little longer?
Show charity with an honest reply
I’m runnin’ outta breath, can’t get no stronger
Tell me why there’s no You and I
Some nights I swear I just can’t be real
Needles and pins, but I just don’t feel
Like a robot-god who never had to kneel
Playin’ losin’ hands of poker, never getting’ to deal
On the bridge of a ship on an uneven keel
Grasping at emotion slippery as an eel
But always pursuing with religious zeal
A salve for the wound of my Achilles’ heel
The world ain’t made me give up on love
Even as I give up on heaven above
No rainbow, olive branch or pure, white dove
Grippin’ hand too big to fit in the glove
Cold here, I’m sleepin’ watchin’ dreams fly away
To a tune full of notes that I can never play
I stay up all night, sleep most of the day
Put words to paper, the only prayers I pray
Like Jesus Christ was said sacrificed
But my aches are iced while my heart is diced
Gotta get gone, can’t stay here
No sweat gonna drop, won’t shed no tear
It’s settled…guess I’m gonna be alone
Don’t leave me no message, I ain’t comin’ home
I’m a man who can’t get the job done
I’m a man who ain’t got no reason to run
I’m a man who’s always gonna be incomplete
I’m a man unnecessarily discrete
I’m a man who never has good news to share
I’m a man who never wants to take a dare
I’m a man who can only be disappointed
I’m a man noxiously anointed