I will not tell you
what I want to
in this world
Talking like that is
laying myself
bare
such a steep hill
to start
When the words
open with a question
you can watch me
close
I don’t ask,
just wait,
maybe wanting
will make truth
but sometimes
when the wind blows
when the leaves fall
when the snow sticks
I don’t need questions or answers
when I’m this close to you
I could fall down at your door
I think I’d end up with
too many bruises
but I wouldn’t mind
as long as I can paint them on your wall
so your story knows
I was here
Sometimes that
silent crash
breaks the glass
around the world
The rustles say I’m a mess
but I’m a mess with you
under these Christmas lights
My heart is made of
answers that won’t break
The next time
it’s a dragon-cold night
I don’t have to tell you what I want
but I will still whisper it to the window
the fog will find your hands
and they will be around me
just when I need
and then the ground thaws
and you’re still here
you can’t know
how much that means
to me
Even when it’s not Christmas
I know there is someone
who loves me
I hope I can be that
for you