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i've decided today is going to be the last day of everything

i'm tired of waking up every morning and knowing hell is waking beside me

i tried to let you go, tried to push it all away

i went numb and silently chipped away pieces of myself because i couldn't feel

but you simply came in and blew me apart all at once

so i'll do you the favor and finish the job

don't even pretend to sympathize or understand

i never asked very much of you, i barely even asked you to love me

so i'm not sure if you're killing me out of kindness or spite

and i'm not sure which would make me feel a little better

it doesn't matter, anyway, because you're happy and nothing else is important

you forgot about me a long time ago but i never forgot you

i've spent so much of my time dying for you and crying for you

i martyred myself on your cross

you never did ask where the bloodstains came from

i never expected you to, but i guess i should have given up the hope

i should not have led myself along silently

so trusting of my own simple deceit

i'm tired of lying to myself and to you

no, i'm not okay

do you hear me now? can you hear me yet?

I AM NOT OKAY NOW

I AM NOT OKAY NOW

so i've decided to let this be the last day of everything

and stop waking up with hell every morning

this is how i will let you go and push it all away

i'm going numb for good and slicing it all off

you came in and blew me apart

so i'm doing you the favor

and finishing the job.