Behind the mask
By jfarrell
In this heat….
I just can’t stop it;
The stupid fixed smile, the deadpan eyes
The mask melts
Like waxworks in a furnace
My clearly defined face - eyes, nose, mouth -
All melt, dissolve
Into a nothingness, a blankness;
No eyes, no smile;
A mask with no face
I wipe myself with a towel;
My eyes are so alive, so hungry
So predatory
I hardly recognise them as mine
Stupid fixed smile?
A shark grins back excitedly
Having just seen lunch
But, in this heat….
It just melts
Another mask destroyed:
My eyes?
Black holes of despair that consume everything;
My smile?
Blackened, chipped and broken ugly teeth
A smile, terrifying in it’s grossness
If I could
I’d choose the Brad Pitt or George Clooney masks
Instead of the monsters inside of me
Always wearing their masks