I miss him dearly and so ashamed for it i ask why i would
why must i to learn from it? cant i forget it all ill have to give up this impulse to think this pain it lingures
i dont know why i really dont maybe its because i dont understand completely and want to hope
theirs no hope here people have made that clear i know that and so many reasons why oh so many i cant take it i cant take this at all i just want it to disappear the only time i can get away is when im on this high of words that i help make i can imagine theres no point of writing this hes not affected in any way i know that too i know i dont cross his mind i know i didnt mean much but a waste of time these words he probably wont read but are a piece of me i wont receive because he took this from me