Breaks me open
in the moments I least expect.
In the middle of something
that has nothing to do with grief.
And holds me together
in the moments I need it most.
When the ground feels uncertain
and everything solid seems to be
shifting.
Same love.
Both things at once.
The breaking and the holding
living in the same permanent
place inside me.
That is what you left behind.
Something that undoes me
and keeps me standing
in the same breath.
In the same moment.
Every single day.