I don't really know how to explain what's
happening inside me. It's not just sadness-it's
a heaviness I can't seem to shake. Smiling feels
forced. Talking feels exhausting. I keep saying
"I'm fine" because I don't know how to say
"I'm not okay." Waking up feels tiring.
Existing feels empty.
Some days, I wonder if anyone would notice
if I stopped pretending-if the mask I wear
finally slipped and revealed the truth.
What hurts the most? Not even knowing exactly
where it hurts, just that it always does. The ache
is constant, quiet, and heavy.
It lives in every breath, every heartbeat, and every moment
I try to push it away.