I Just Want to Feel Okay

I wake each day with noise inside my head, I don't feel alive, I feel almost dead They say it's a phase, it will go away, But this pain inside me is here to stay.

My thoughts are loud, they don't let me rest,

It feels like a war inside my chest.

I don't know if it's anger or just deep pain, But it keeps coming back again and again.

I try to smile, I say I'm okay,

But I feel more lost with each passing day.

I hide my truth, I play my part,

While something is breaking inside my heart.

I run from myself, but I don't know how, I feel so stuck in this moment now.

I try to move on, I try to be free, But I end up right where I used to be.

I lie and say that I'm doing fine, But fear keeps growing inside my mind.

I'm scared of falling, I'm scared to stay, I don't even know if there's a way.

I'm not okay, but I still try, I keep it in, I don't ask why.

I'm just someone who wants to feel, Something simple, something real.

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