Something tells me to shut the doors
Close off the world to its own insanity
And leave me to my own
Let the whole world just go to hell
While I live in my own.
You don’t try to understand me
And I wonder sometimes
If you ever did
You’ve left me a stranger to you
Building nothing
Yet expecting everything to be there for you.
I don’t want to let you inside me anymore
I don’t want that hurt and emptiness
To pervade the existence that is merely that –
Just
Existing
But never truly living.
Can I push you out of my life
Without breaking my own heart?
Will you let me be my on my own
Falling separately
From all that you want me to be
But that I never will.
August 29, 2003