All my years alone i ran from a pain deep down,
of living alone and dying with no one around,
my fears placed writers block by block to make a wall,
so writing a book has taken a backseat while i slowly fall,
i do at times believe in myself,
and other times i think of you til i need help,
it feels like i'm down here looking above
at you and everything that i love,
maybe tomorrow i'll wake up and improvements will start,
i'll put my shoes on and think "i don't have to fall apart",
or baby i could again dream of everything we were, again,
then wake up and realize, again, we're barely friends,
all the words she texts i'll never remember,
cause all i see daily is us smiling last whenever,
then never came sooner one September when you shoved
away one of the few guys who will ever have legit love.