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i am so ashamed

i can't look in the mirror

everything i am

is everything i fear

those eyes so full of terror

i've never seen those before

that ugly smile, that face

i don't recognize me anymore



i am so ashamed

i can't look you in the eye

when i say i'm doing fine

god knows that's a lie

i wish i could be honest

but i don't want you to see

everything i am

when you look at me



this monster i've become

these thoughts inside my head

the truth is too much to speak

so i lie to you instead

but i can't deny it to myself

and it's tearing me up inside

i want to get away from it

but there's nowhere left to hide



i pinch myself everytime

i get this urge to tell you

because i can't tell anyone

it'd kill me if you knew



i want someone to help me

but i know i'm all alone

i think it's about time

i face my demons on my own

i pray i can just be strong

i can't let this conquer me

i can't let myself give up

i'm fighting for victory



the problem isn't the world

now i know it's me

i have to do this alone

no one can help me but me