Honest



You wanted me to be honest

Well here it goes

I can no longer stand her smiling

The real me shows

I try to be perfect

And I put on a good act

But my joy is a farce

I am afraid of how you’ll react

I saw that look in your eyes

When you saw the blood on my arm

I saw the tears you hid

When I denied doing harm

I know you love me

That is why you avoid me

You see hope and a bright future

You want me to be free

For so long I had the world

At my fingertips

But now my life’s a game

And I am stuck with sunken battleships

I was daddy’s little girl

But then he went away

And it taught me

True love doesn’t stay

So why should I believe you

When you say “I am here”

I know the truth

And I am filled with fear

I want to so badly to tell you it all

But the question, do you have time?

When I break down these walls

I want your attention to be all mine

I know your life is busy

So I will stand and wait

But if I end up dying

Just know it was my fate.

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