Here I sit with sadness around me
Feeling alone with no purpose
My life is about to change
But to my surprise I feel worse then ever.
Maybe its the longing
Or maybe the anticipation
Whatever it is I feel low.
It makes no sense
None at all.
Tgat doesn't matter however
I need this change.
Its what I've been preparing for
The months have ticked on
And now its here.
These feelings of sadness are not due
To my life changing
They feel like I've lost a friend
And I can't find her
I miss my child
And have never met or seen her.
I want my love for her to be shared by her.
I want my baby
I miss her.
Sherry B
Oct. 1/09