We drifted.
Our thoughts were a jumbled
collection of useless words
flung about with
careless abandon.
You sighed.
I rippled my
eyes at you to indicate
I understood your perspective.
You felt the
endless talking
we had been doing
was a useless exercise in futility.
I agreed.
We emptied our lips of the
words we had been using
to hurt one another.
This was our first step towards reconciliation.
We realized that spreading
our anger in waves
of dripping sarcasm
would not provide us with
solutions.
I sighed.
I knew that the pain I had
caused you would result
in pain you would
cause me.
We knew that the only path
we could safely walk
was the one
that lead us away from each other.
We dallied.
Afraid to move on
and yet afraid to stay .
We roughed out an agreement of living
that would satisfy both our ambitions.
We shook hands
to signify the sealing of the bargain.
I cringe at
the memory of the holes you have made in my heart.