The stairs feel longer this year.
Nothing in the house has shifted,
yet something gives a small clink behind me
whenever a name slips loose.
A sharp snap in the wall,
and I tap the switch out of habit.
Mornings thin out.
The kettle sits cold after I set it going,
then later boils over quietly,
frost sliding across the bench
and soaking a list I should’ve tossed.
On the fridge, April carries a red smear.
Most squares are rubbed pale.
Pages press through each other—
May over June,
a birthday leaning on a funeral.
The kookaburra magnet keeps slipping
as if the dates drag it down.
I kept small lanterns of memory—
their glass fogs,
their wicks cough out smoke
that drifts into rooms
I’d rather leave shut.
One still holds a faint eucalyptus scent,
though some days it’s only dust.
The rooms feel scooped out.
The air thickens.
The walls give off a low static,
as if the house is holding its breath
longer than I manage.
A cupboard door clicks on its own.
I blame the house,
though maybe it’s the weather.
Still, I move.
A step.
Another.
One of them out of order.
Somewhere between beats
I check the kettle again
and find it warm,
though I don’t recall touching it.
.