if only u were a mind reader
then my actions on the outside
wouldn't matter
because what i think of u
would make the feelings he has
for u scatter.....
i'm outside stalking u with my heart
a silent lovers voice
who screwed it all up from the start
if only i could go back
and change the way i treated u
but now we are miles apart
yet u live down the street
i'm outside shivering from disbelief
that i could be so stupid
and cause u so much grief
when i had u i wanted something else
now your gone and i think of nothing else
i'm outside chewing my fingers to the bone
contemplating ways to get a hold of u
you have blocked my e-mails, changed the phone
i haven't been by, but i'm sure u have moved
its not just because i'm alone
its because i broke up a good home
i'm outside now, i promise
this is the real me
the other person i have dismissed
trust me he's gone
and won't ever be missed
i'll do what ever u want
just for one more kiss
i'm shattering teeth
trying to think of ways i can touch u
if roses came by the thousands
i'd send a whole fleet
i'm outside dying from what i have done
its my fault, ofcourse
i curse u and love u for what i have become
if only, are the only words i can think of
i guess its better than some
you taught me something
the only way out of a mess
is to confront it, and move on
u have to truly confess
though i look at your picture
and smack my self
i still love u
for not taking me back