why do I play their games?
why do i play into my own?
a group surrounds me when i am down far below
i hardly can see now but i will get more pills
they alone will slow this melancholy down safe and sound
these days feel so set up
my mom is called on a dime
”watch over her, we need to stall some time”
now ive got everyone on their toes
this happens every time i feel lower than low
so right now my stomach feels ill
but the hurt lets me know i am real
ive got the chills and with these thoughts i will…
i will to see the best but i will to see the worst
and my thirst for both is strong
this journey of course, exhausting and long
i will never see the day,
the day of accomplishment
i cant get out of bed to wash one dish
and i now have resentment