The feeling of wanting is strong,
Having something youre not allowed,
Thinking about the never-ending ache,
Longing to have that bind of control again,
The sensation of feeling and giving,
Flowing away, gushing out from deep within,
An ache you never really get over,
Something youll never forget,
From the first time it happens,
And every time after that,
The sense of relief and joy,
Everything just disappears,
Melts away like snow in the hot sun,
Gravity pulling everything out,
As well as your body pushing it away,
But you know like I do,
It never really goes away,
That rush only makes you want it more,
A feeling not of pain but meaning,
Release of pent up anger, sadness, joy, anything,
You end up craving something else as well as the pain,
The bleeding.