All I want to do is die,
To get away from it all,
Be free of the mortal coil that enslaves me,
Rip open my wrists and watch myself die.
You say you'd cry your eyes out,
I know you'd get sick of me, like the others,
Want nothing to do with me,
So you own my soul, you can't keep it from burning.
Troubling you with my problems, it's not fair,
Why should I put you through my misery?
Just agree with me, that i'd be better off dead,
A rotting corpse lying six foot under.
My body emaciated and bare to the bone,
Even my skeleton being eaten away,
You wouldn't really miss me, you're just saying that,
Not meaning it, I don't care, i'm used to it.
All I ever wanted was a true friend,
I never found one, my heart longs to be shared,
How it aches to find another that likes it,
The bleeding it does, pains me so much.
My Demon inside telling me to die and give in,
Sometimes I wish it weren't a sin to kill your self,
No matter how hard I try, i'm still here,
Aching and in pain from my red Demon (heart).
Crying night after night after night,
Wanting to unshackle my body from chains,
The chains that keep me alive in torture,
And in this God forsaken, cold, bleak world.
The mortal coil, a ferocious, wild, animal,
Feeding on pleasure and pain from humans,
Wishing I was a ghost, angel, demon or deity,
My head spinning in and out of control.
The guillotine, hanging or blood loss,
Quick and painless or, slow and painful?
Why should I live, I have nothing to live for,
No one to care and loves me, why live in pain?
Shuffle me loose of the mortal coil please,
The world would be a happier place without me,
I'm begging you to kill me and let me die,
My life a misery and pain forever.
My heart split into two sections,
The top full of emotion,
And the bottom, a dismal abyss of nothing,
Still my heart weeps with pain.
I know the world hates me, pains me for pleasure,
Look at me, i'm emotionless 'cos of it,
While my heart weeps, you laugh at me,
Take a long look at me, what I am,
One day I swear i'm going to end it all,
Simply because, i'm fucked in the head.