it's come down to this
very moment (some people may
like to call her now, or text her)
it's not now, nor never, this wish
like a flower forever unfolding...
when i acquire the funds
the bounty, the money
the crispy apple dollar bills
i might like to settle down
and settle in, with belly out
by starting over
though if i don't
no doubt about
haunted by what remains
this version of me
is nothing but incomplete