Just how to express and capture
Through words
The feeling in my heart?
Unlike any sensation I have ever felt before,
Whether it be good or bad,
Right or wrong.
It's unwelcome and unnatural
But so comfortable and exciting.
It's nothing from the ordinary
It is quite not my lifestyle.
Yet I can call it beautiful and still painful
For I keep returning.
I yearn for more of this bitter poison,
Ready to drag my world down at any given moment.
Stopping is far from the right thing to do.
Hold myself back I don't want to.
This merry-go-round circus,
I love the rainbow of life.
Oh how I don't want to get off.