now that you're really gone.
now i realize it all.
i know that i was wrong.
and i know now what i should have done.
and now that i see them all.
all the things that i did wrong.
but trust me when i say.
it's all that i regret today.
and i know that it's to late.
but it's only myself i hate.
and i could sit here all day.
just writing it all away.
but what would it help?
when i can only blame myself.
even tho it hurts today.
i hope it goes away someday.
I’m tired of these silly games.
i only hope I’ll win someday.
till then i remember.
what happened that December.
and even tho i wish you the best.
you make my life feel like a test.
i don’t know what i should do.
you know i would leave it all for you.
I’m tired of all this second-guessing.
your company is all I’m missing.
i still remember how we used to be.
back then it all felt so free.
now all i want to see.
is you truly smile again.
i know that we have fought.
and i don’t know what i thought
but after all the pain and suffering.
your smile is still the only thing that stuns me.
i have cried an ocean of tears.
and filled my heart with fears.
i don’t understand your insecurity.
its like cant see your own beauty.
and your cuts.
fill my thoughts.
i know you say you have seen me like this before.
and i hate fighting with you cause its such a bore.
i know that you hate me when we argue.
but i don't know how I’d be without you.
But you know that I will never give it up.
Because you’re the one I love.
You say you don’t need me.
and that I should leave you be.
But I see trough your words.
So I stay here.
I wish I could let go.
But I don’t think our love is gone.