I am in love with you
have been
likely
since oh the second
moment or two
you drown me in your love
through all your praise
I had to swim
to get to the other side
of the right side of in
so deep
just like I dreamed
and even deeper together
we too often seem
for me, your love is like a grenade
so big, so powerful
so unpredictable
life changing to the very grave
you warned you are too sensitive
and I am finding this out more and more
big events with big painful endings
we have been through this revolving
door before
deep in your soul you know I love you
but your insecurity from the past you
lived
rises in you and promotes fear
and you tar me from my joking words
with the muck left over from another
I am not her
never will be
that I must make clear
I will not butcher you
I have showed you in innumerable ways
how so very much I love you
I am here for the long stay
I made a mistake yet again
after all I am just a woman
a mere fallible human
I misjudged what your reaction would be
it changes nothing
I still love you more than my next breath
though I inadvertently wounded you
when all I wanted to do was
make you feel missed
and smile so tenderly
at realizing this
there are no others
with me you hold the
truest sway
I was longing for you and waiting
hoping to see you
I played the petulant woman
what you took as barbs
i sent as playful
secure lover's love notes
you know I would never choose any
mere young boy over you
that would be like choosing a
dime store ring over the hope diamond
I'm silly but not that stupid
please love me again
you are my world.......................
(Nov. 7, 2009 722am)