in the clearest moment of my
unfolding depression
I chose at the very last instant
to look for happiness
and I found happiness
instead of looking for sadness
as I had always done
and finding sadly enough
just that
only sadness
the equation before me was so very
simple
I was lost
in all that I felt I had lost
and now , I am found
in all that I have found
my heart no longer wonders
into shadows
where my soul refuses to alight
in a far more spiritual sense
its as if God is whispering to me
'Melissa you are alright!'
these very words
were music to my soul............
(Jan. 10, 1999)