the fan fair in my head almost endlessly aches
to somehow be fed
I am flummoxed by such confusion
torn between not so simple desire and lust's
own intrusion
yet why am I wholely embarrassed
by such intimate hoped for conclusion
when I should be thinking
well I could care less
almost to the point of total exclusion
its a damned spell of some sort
that hes put on me
why I should just kick him to make it stop
but I won't
as I love all that enigmatic attention too
much
I really need to face facts
its about time for me to admit
such jig is indeed up
so
'Goodbye My Gorgeous You!'..........
(Oct. 12, 1998)