with eyes that saw so clearly
and caressed my trembling flesh
with equal degrees of frank intensity
he was
in a word
superb
lover
educator
mentor
prankster
liberator
guide
and always of course
friend
for that was his specialty
he was
the one true catalyst of all my
life's dearest prosperity
to the point
that even still today
I anguish over the loss
yet dwell in the naked wonder
do I ever cross his mind
in fondness
with even a modicum of any real
regret
I simply do not know
but I can revel in my own
wishful suspicions
can't I
you bet ya
I can
and quite often do............
(March 2, 1999)