Its silly, really, that it never crossed my mind
Life unraveling, until the right situation in time
We’re not ready, its not here yet, but here I am
I can’t un-notice the noticed, just following a plan
I have always craved your attention a great deal
Perhaps I have been feeling something I couldn’t see
I started thinking about you and I got short of breath today
Our “hello” hug, our “goodbye” hug, they’re just a little too great
Am I imagining things or does this really make sense?
But how? I’m not ready, I can’t handle leaping that fence
I know you don’t see it yet, I’m not sure I want you to at all
But now it seems so obvious I’m really afraid I’ll fall
How am I gonna handle this hurdle life threw me
I don’t want to have to wonder, I love being free
Free of worries, and concerns, and emotional frustration
Go away thoughts, I wish I could make them end
But the simplicity amuses me-its a logical epiphany
I got to take this slow, sit back and watch it evolve
Let things play out or they could completely dissolve
I don’t want to lose you and neither of us need this for now
I’ll remain your friend and be the only way I know how
The only thing that plagues me is if you ever wonder too
If you can see what I do, you just know it can’t happen soon
Can I actually prevent myself from falling in love with you?
And is that really what I want to do?
This is an extremely frightening truth
What the hell am I going to do?
Fall 2005