Lover I am so very busy
Just disappearing from your view.
Becoming a shadow of my former self.
Knowing a depth that you never knew.
And in life I wanted so badly.
To be the essence of all you dreamt.
I could never really make the cut
In death, I’m still not good enough.
And now I watch your shadow moving
Across the crimson patterned walls.
I see your eyes stalk passing girls
Within a busy banquet hall.
This hunger that I have for you
Cannot be filled with any food.
I’m nobody
I’m not anybody
I don’t deserve a body.
I was starved of your affection
Maybe I was seeking your attention.
By making myself so miniscule.
Somehow I thought I’d appear
Large than life to you.