as I sit in the shower
I cry a tear for all the pain
as I fall to the floor
you don’t hear the thud
your not around to see the blood
you don’t watch my nails
as they dig into my skin
but if I bleed then why am I still here
why are you talking to me right now
you wonder why
it’s because I just couldn’t
I couldn’t just end it then
but the scars are there
I hide them so you don’t see
because you don’t see the real me
I don’t think anyone does
but don’t think that just because
I didn’t end it today
that I won’t end it tomorrow
I am alone
still here because of them
those few people who love me
those few people who still care