I wish I could change the way my emotions work.
inside I shine a bright yellow like the sunrise.
my smile warms the world yet my eyes are mysterious.
you never know when they going 2 change from
stars to dark clouds pouring drops of rain from inside.
Inside, my heart is beautiful as a perfectly picked rose.
it needs light to grow & flourish into more than beauty.
It’s trapped in darkness consumed by sadness.
what do I do 2 unlock myself from this cage I’m stuck in?
longing for peace
but my garden has been tampered with.
I feel violated,
Invaded by the different mood swings of my emotions!
what do I do about all these different feelings?
I need a healing from my thoughts.
you make my soul sing & my heart dance with fireflies
yet you keep me singing the blues, tired of the same
tunes wishing I was with you,
hoping one day I can hang onto more than this cross
necklace you sent me.
send me you, a perfect gift in my arms so I can feel the
happiness you make me feel inside.
He upsets me with his tantrums, getting into shit
making me want to hang him by his toes!
I guess that’s the boy in him.
I will always love & cherish him because no matter what,
he's my little man. I’ll always love him & Doug
but I’m incomplete without my little woman.
she was my lady bug.
It’s getting closer to her birthday.
I wish I could be right there to see her face when
she turns 10.
I wish I could escape out of this storm I been
sitting in for years.
I pray to god to heal me from my wounds
& broken tears.
he still hasn’t answered me, but until he does,
A part of me will be sore trying to maintain my sanity.
I got 2 wonderful men in my life helping me through.
I should be fine for now.
I know that although she gone, deep inside my heart, she’s still mine.
"there are different kind of tears. Mine are broken because they aren’t happy; they broke & inside my pain is exposed"--Lasohnda Harris