i just wanted to talk
someone to understand
someone to be there
like i was told before
but one word
of wht my problems are
i have been denied
been told there is no help
i have writen things
about her...and yet
im doing it again..
i have hurt her..
too much pain i have brought..
too much pain to have said...
i have said nor done anything...
but the pain remains....
just like the way...
my friend shall stay...
not her but him...
with a belt around his neck
holding on for dear life
want to live...
and yet not die...
his mind has changed...
and so has mine...
i dont want to go out...
instead i want to die....