Z Cutter

ZZZZZZ

 

So you feel you are worthless.

 

You hold the knife

and you cut yourself.

 

You say you make the letter

Z.

 

ZZZZZZZZ

 

You watch

the blood...dripping...

 

ZZZZZ

 

You feel worthless,

But if you ever met

and cared for someone,

 

Someone who held the world in the palm

of their hand one day,

 

And the next day

slipped on ice and became 

paralyzed, to the point of 

not being able to go to the toilet,

 

ZZZZZZ

 

If you ever saw the helplessness,

in their eyes,

the physical pain,

the mental pain,

the pain of gut wrenching emotion they feel

to know they can never again hold their wife,

their baby,

their mother,

and have to ask for their diaper changed.

 

ZZZZZZZZ

 

A grown man,

or woman,

to see, hear, empathize with

their feeling of worthlessness,

desire to DIE,

 

UZZZZZZZU

 

And watch them try,

one day at a time,

or one hour at a time,

or even one minute at a time 

 

UUUUUUU

 

And then if you saw them smile,

and their  worthless soul lifted you

higher than any angel's wings,

 

ZZZZZZZZZZZZ

 

THEN,

 

*

 

U

would know,

 

WHAT

 WORTHLESS

IS.

 

Z CUTTER.

 

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

 

.....

Author's Notes/Comments: 

The purpose of "worthless". (written after reading several poems on this site about "cutting" and the "highs" people get from it).

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