There is hope that i will make it through
Even at times when i just don't know what to do
There now shines light where once only dark
Finding within myself a hidden spark
As i begin to move up and overcome my fears
I dust myself off and dry my tears
Leaving the emptiness behind in the coming years
Like i have finally awaken from this nightmare
And all it took was for someone to care
Sometimes all i need is a friend to be there....
Author's Notes/Comments:
Ummm yeah i don't normally write poems about other guys LMAO... and no im not gay. But what the hell i always write about things and situations that seriously effect my life. And he had a great impact on me why? Because he see's something in my that i don't something that everyone else in my life has always doubted. And i won't stop until i hit the top i mean jesus if i only took my own fucking advice to begin with i wouldn't be fucking sitting here worrying about when i am going to be evicted and about my landlord pressing charges on me which i don't eve know what for lol. I need to stop wanting to be everyone else and just be myself for one fucking day in my life. Its like i have a voice and no one ever hears it because i never use it lol. It would take a million words for someone that completly knew me in and out to describe me and thats not always a good thing lol. Yes i suppose it is good to be unique but when you are as shy is me i guess you would understand. Not to mention keeping all my fucking hate and anger too myself and one day i will snap and instead of putting my fist through a wall next time it may be someone's face and no i would never hit a friend unless i had no choice lol. After my boss yelled at me today i finally woke up to some reality but i would rather not get into that. And the worst part i sold my computer for nothing all wasted so i could drink it all away. Heh if i had a chance to take it back i would so i could drink enough to sleep for good. No thats not even the worst part the worst is that i had to get another laptop to fill an emptiness in myself and that i expect no one to understand so i will not explain anything else......
