I hope you cried
When you thought of the things you did
And the truths you hid
From me and yourself
I hope you cried
When you realized the love you lost
And the price it cost
You in the long run
I hope you cried
In the days and months
Before you died
Thinking of me
And what could have been
You discarded me broken
And confused
Miserable and addicted
To all that is toxic
Unable to top it
I hit rock bottom emotionally
If only I could see
That what you gave me
Was the best you had
Instead
I saw you as sad
Sorry wasted talent
With the minus touch
Everything beneath your finger tips
Turned to shit
I was sick
Of the emotional acting out
The childish games
Played during verbal bouts
That wasted my time
And yours
I moved on with age
But you set your stage
At fifteen years
And holding
While unfolding
My arms I realize
That time flies
Even when you’re
Not having fun
I hope you thought of me
In the months and hours
Before you died
I hope you cried