Inexperience told me
Go with all you got
Head first
Heart and soul
Mind and body
Life’s worth it
Mom told me
GOD loves you
Making me think
The red flags
Were deep rose colored
Blowing in winds of excess
To test
My strength, endurance, and loyalty
Life moved
Within the boundaries
Of my love
Like a tornado spinning
Over hallowed ground
Breaking my resilience
Loosening my tenacity
And hiding the real me
Detached emotionally
I remained obligated
To domestic fear
Financial confinement
And familiar pain
Torn between logic and
Reasonable expectation
A cold came over me
Parallel to my future
Perpendicular to my happiness
Engulfing my sense of self
Destructively
I was lost
So I warned others
Of the impending doom
Thinking if I saved them
I’d find myself
I was wrong
That’s fine
Because I’ve grown
To embrace my emotions
I’m coping
I’m dealing with it
I’m going thru it
I’m accepting
I’m liberating unhealthy thought
I’m reaching out
I’m working it out
I’m trying
I’m OK