I can be cruel to you
-spill it all out in one nasty letter
But your misery doesn’t make me
feel any better.
Beneath your name I curse
it always makes me feel worse.
I read your words through tears in my eyes
knowing none of them were meant for me.
Only one to tell me I’m evanescent
-tell me I’m a voice you wish you never heard.
Perhaps through my angry facade
I should cry a little louder.
Would you hear me?
Would the last words of infidelity I spoke
echo in your ears
and pierce your memory that seems to forget my existence?
Could I tell you I miss you
without seeming hypocritical?
If I clawed you to death
and whispered I’m sorry
would you forgive me
and tell me you deserved it?
These are the things I need to know
before I can ever let you go.
I’m feeling these tears swelling up in my eyes.
With hot tears sliding down my skin
I wonder how I can feel so cold and lonely within.
Perhaps it’s people like us that deserve to be lonely.
We all have our reasons
and I can’t say I don’t know what it feels like
to want someone to hold me.