Reflection from Isolation

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Moving forward

I’m stronger today

I thought you should know

My heart ached for so long and the thought of not being with you

Made me feel small

But with this time away I can finally say

You had no right to my heart and you should have let it go

Instead you held it tight and made me feel like everything you did was because of me 

I drove you to it, you would often say

But always denied the obvious that you had some other chic you played with on the side

You would lie to cover up more lies, and you had no problem telling me you loved me. 

You had no problem still fucking me

But I knew, and I had a problem with what you were doing, I didn’t leave 

And I let you do it

I let you hurt me and

Each time, a little bit of me died

And til this day I’m still waiting on you

To be a man and tell me what you did, to be honest with me

I know you won’t

I know you think it was all okay

To make a stupid cunt out of me 

To make me feel so small and that I wasn’t good enough 

Not even for someone like you

You and your friends all had a good laugh at what an idiot I was hanging around 

I cooked, I cleaned and I gave you head and sex with you every single day and all I got from you and your kids was to be treated like shit but not anymore

See I decided I’m to good to be treated so cruelly

Especially from a guy like you

Those other girls didn’t have feelings for you

They laughed behind your back and took advantage of you 

So much harder than what you did to me

I wanted to believe so bad that it was me ultimately that you loved

That it was me that was the special one

But the last. One you tried so hard to replace me with

Well what can I say that one hit hard

So as you read this I hope you realise that by breaking my heart

And making me feel small

By making me the biggest joke

And taking from me all you could

Know that you never got the best of me

Cos the best of me is yet to come

When you lay there alone which I know won’t be for long I hope it hits you

Just what you’ve done

And everytime the new chick uses you and moves along 

Your life becomes more empty and you realise your the worthless one

And everyday I hope you think about me