Distraction

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Can't finish a sentence without focusing on something else.

From changing music to going back and fourth between tabs,

I can't be consistent with one simple task for a minute.

My mind is always in complete chaos and shambles.

 

What if I'm really bipolar genetically?

Well, that wouldn't surprise or worry me at all;

I'm already an outcast from everyone else.

Yet, it feels more comforting and peaceful being this way.

 

Nowadays, sleep is just out of the question,

considering how many things I do and think of in a minute.

It'll be nice if I suddenly go blank-minded sometimes.

My thoughts shift from one to another like skipping songs on my phone.

 

If I just hear one word from something,

it'll make me think of something completely different instantly.

I mean, it's perfect for music and my own stories.

When will it all stop for even just a single minute?

 

Maybe I'm going absolutely crazy right now,

or I might just have ADHD, that's all.

Who knows really, all I know is that I'm not normal.

But why would I want to be normal in the first place?

 

My fingers type several words quickly on the keyboard

and then I'm randomly searching for songs afterwards.

Then, they run through my soft black hair to straighten it

before my eyes look around the kitchen for some food or drink.

 

I have many philosophical thoughts and dreams one second

and then I'll be thinking about being a party monster later.

My body would switch sitting positions on the chair every minute.

I can't even listen to a song completely without changing it.

 

My eyes never tire from all the random things I do,

but I pass out from exhaustion as soon as I get in bed.

I really don't know what's wrong with me since I'm easily distracted.

Maybe I benefit more for being this way instead of being normal.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

6/15/2015

 

This was so ironic as I was writing it while working in the fitting room.

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