Nobody came back from the dead so how was I suppose to know
That sometimes when it’s over it ain’t really done. Now I know
Such a relief I thought it would be you no longer on my mind
Saying it out loud, writing it down even acting unkind
How stunned I was when I suddenly realized that you weren’t in my head
But engraved in my heart and never can you erase its content. So instead
Like the cold that stops flowers from blooming I moved where it’s all day gloaming
Thought keeping it from growing would limit the damages; done troubleshooting.
Instead my hands are cold, my heart’s freezing but never would I have cold feet
I keep walking hoping I’ll meet that man who will be powerful enough to delete
My memories of you & again with just one night, one dream (the way it all started)
It’ll reboot my fate; my faith in love. Forever broken hearted.
‘I don’t know why your heart doesn’t do what your mind tells it’ Brown Sugar
You’re the toughest test I ever took cause six years later
I’m still failing and tears are falling, even that time at the complex behind the counter
Acted like there was nothing but there you were my everything. Made everything better
Convinced I told U it was my last poem to you. Got over U for the millionth time that day
Probably days without thoughts of me? Not a day without U in my thoughts; it’s a shame
Who’s 2 blame? U’re a grown up, we grew apart. Still I wish I could be a part of ur game
We changed together in opposite directions but still got that physical attraction
Not the time yet; never was our mind set. Never even had a real date! Just an allusion
You were my college crush, never thought we’d cross the line past the grad day
But I’ve cross the state line in less than a day. Won a bet: 10cents came back with 50
(He called me a soldier. As if he knew that your love is my enemy?)
Than it must be true cause still today I’d walk the line to one day walk down the aisle
U know it’s all about us, the poems I mean coz life thinks different. I so want to unlove U But at the same time nothing would feel better than to stand still with you
I still haven’t met that person that would make me not want to kiss you
If every time I’m committed means being scared of committing adultery
I rather stay single, keep in touch and hope we’ll forever be friendly
Coz sometimes I think there’s something stronger than love coz
U loved her and I loved him and nothing could stop us coz
Even though we knew it was bad it was worth feeling guilty
Never we hesitated, it wasn’t just lust. It was trust to believe nothing would be lost
That time I messed-up I cried unusual tears. Saying sorry didn’t help my sorrows
Not a moment not doubting how it may have make things different
Wondering if by making a mistake you can miss your fate, how can I be indifferent?
Also because we ain’t no different we both done bad, except that I’ve been paying for it
Since then ain’t that sad? Nobody said love gone be easy. If that’s the case then that’s it
We’ve found love cause we never had it easy. Think about it next time you meet a girl
Proof test her with me if again we kiss, you got your answer. If not I just expired
It all started in a dream or was it a vision of reality like the ‘Manchurian Candidate’?
Like some deal cards, some make deals and dealing with him has always been something
Two years after the beginning and 6 years later; a presence always just a bit annoying
Every time I think about him I think about you. You’re the reason of our ending
I loved him for a day and the other for a minute, him all night and the other at day light
I walk alone and most of the time I don’t think about you; looking at the sun so bright
I’ll sleep and wake up and most of the time no dreams bringing you back.
Opposites may attract but all we’ve been doing is running side by side on the track
Thinking of where I’m going and where I’ve been and there you are again.
You on the southeast me on the northwest side. Reminding me of him; over again
We didn’t have a relationship but you were part of his & mine. The cruising ship
Me and him ‘that everlasting union’; you were a part of THAT relationship!