I miss my childhood best friend.
I wish things hadn’t changed
so much between us.
I wish we never grew up
and became such different people
because I miss what we had.
Never perfect,
but we used to be so close
and do everything together.
I wish more than anything else
I could been have been there for you
during the hard times.
I wish you shared with me
what you were going through,
I could have helped you.
In the end, I helped you
but you’ve never forgiven me
for what I did to get you out.
I can’t help blaming myself
for letting things get
as far as they did.
I should have read the signs
and stopped you before
it was too late.
But I wasn’t the friend
I should have been.
I hope one day you’ll see
that I did my best
even though I’ll never have
my best friend back.