I cannot stop blaming myself
for ruining what we had.
I lost the best thing in my life,
and I spent so much time
not trusting you
that I didn’t even see it.
I cannot forgive myself
for ever questioning
your motives.
You never did anything
to make me think you
didn’t have a pure heart.
But my past and other people
overshadowed our relationship.
I spent so much time waiting
for you to prove your love
that I missed it
when you showed it
in your own way.