Just sit awhile
and listen
as I pour my heart out
into open palms.
Pay attention
as this child of yours
bleeds for the last time.
I can't let these scars
you left on me
keep me from healing.
I want to let go
of these grudges
but they pierce the skin,
bruise the heart.
Where were you when
I needed someone
to mend my ego?
Why did you tear me down
so much
when I just wanted
to bring this family together?
Why did you
break so many promises
and keep me in
constant disappointment?
And how dare you
turn around
and say I brought this
on myself?
Are you still listening?
Are you watching the stains
spill from my heart?
You ask me
if you can stop the pain.
The answer is no,
but lead me to the one who can.