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I moved in at a young age

That was the day when the ‘family game’ began

We pretended to be one warm family outside but inside was cold

At first I was lost

I tried to love and care but all that did was hurt me

Make you happy but you were all disgusted

Outside you smiled, hugged me….cared

But then you turned around and pushed me when no one looked

All of you

I had no one and I wanted to die

Why live when no one wanted you there?

Then I closed my eyes and when I reopened them

I played the game with you 

I smiled, laughed and said “I am not just fine, I am GREAT”

My heart went into a cage…locked away

The funny part is that you actually believed my part in this game

There is no denying that you thought of me as a weak, obedient little girl

You thought of me to be that way because I made you believe it

I hid behind a mask

Became an empty shelll

Why feel when it hurts?

But do you know how much effort I had to put into this game?

This game hurts me because it’s another day that I had to wake up too and play my role

Years have passed and we are still playing this ‘game’  

Even though it hurts I will never show it and little by little it became easier

Don’t you think it’s sad? That at the age 9 I have perfected my technique to deceive you

Now the wall is up and I am slowly losing myself within the Mask that’s supposed to protect me.

I left that house though

I left because God gave me a road to escape to and do something with my life

The weight has been lifted and I am free

But….

Now I want to feel wanted, loved and special even if it’s just for a moment

I thought I escaped...

but I was wrong! Like a shadow its right behind me, always following

I am 20 and yet ‘The game’ continues     

Now you want to get to know me

Too late

I won’t open my heart to you

Stop! You’re making a fool out of yourself

I would rather DIE than open my heart to you

To anyone

We been playing this game too long

Now we have to finish it

Only death will set me free and I will be waiting for that day to come. 

I only wish for death to come sooner