To be...Impulsive...
Just to let yourself be
With a mind left to wonder
and feet that are free
It's stupid and thoughtless
left better to those without a care
to hair brained teens
with lives neither here nor there
Me? where do I fall
to far gone fro such things
for to grown to care
Knowing all my life brings
You? tell me you loved it
my childish, long forgotten schemes
the way I ran and romped about
chasing after foolish dreams
So why did you plot
when my mind was away
because it was stupid
and all I wanted was to play
Still here we are
fighting over frivolous fun
you hate when i'm impulsive
but wont see it done
So heres my declaration
never again of this I speak
though you "miss" my impulses
I am just far to weak
I no longer care to
pull you up when i'm down
when I feel like a child
greeted from fun with a frown
So i'll pretend not to want
fight the urge to say yes
when people may ask me
just leave then to there mess
Sadly you will never know
I will bury it to deep
the impulses I hide
are the one thing I wanted tot keep
Soo goodbye to my dreams
there are new idols to be found
just forget who I am
without struggle or sound
At this luminescent screen i'm stuck
my mind as blank as the games I play
never a thought of what i want
those always saved for another day