I thought I had a friend I thought she was true
But in the end she left me to go through
The nightmares you could only fear
And now I sleep and wake with tears
I hear the door locking every night
I feel his kisses and it’s not right
I remember yelling I rather die
I remember his voice don’t ask why
Things he said I cannot forget
The fears I’d love to just get rid
I fear my boyfriend
I fear his touch
I fear I’ll wake up and it will be Josh
His name I remember I can’t let go
Because he hurt me more than you know
How long will I be like this?
How long will I run?
How long can I shiver if Steve is the one?
I can barely kiss him
I barely can sleep
I barely let him see me weak
But when I cry he’s always there
I know he loves me and that he cares