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Rubber Road and Me Moment
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Feel To Heal
Okay, so this morning God shared phenomenal things with me.
Confirmed so many things. I have been on track all along.
Then prayer person confirmation.
Then one of my favorite online ministry leaders did a teaching on something God showed me.
Yes, I have been working on repentance because when you have a belief system that says you must listen to and do everything in your power to keep the peace, don’t rock the boat, be quiet, go with the flow, or you are wrong.
Then God starts giving you alignment, discernment, you stand up for yourself and others. You point things out. You get stronger in your anointing and discernment yet you made the mistake of still allowing people to cross boundaries. Then you set boundaries, started asking for accountability and transparency, only to be met with the same system which told you as a child.
“Be quiet, keep the peace, this should've been over with by now, drop it.
Fast forward when a member of leadership in the system says to me” you have mental issues, you don’t have any anointing, your prayers aren't reaching God, you're not a good steward with money, you have a pride issue.”
It rocks right back to the belief system that we were raised in that all ministry leaders are never wrong. We must comply with everything they say at all times. Drop everything.
Here’s the thing…
I did that for years, so when I started seeing, having understanding, knowledge, discernment, asking to be heard several times over things to be corrected,instead I was told basically to shut up. I was wrong and to go away. I was told to apologize and I was considered the villain, so when I did raise my voice after years of carpet dancing, being unheard, stuffing things deeper and deeper to the point where my health was jeopardized on all levels. I walked away. I can't fix a system that is not just broken for myself but for generations upon generations. I can stop it from going on to my daughter’s.
See part of what I know that God showed me is that I was raised around the establishment, different, yet hidden for such a time as this.
This is the moment where the rubber meets the road. Where I accept my assignments, callings, mantle. I have jobs to do and time is short.
