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Slipping Through My Fingers
I stick the needle in and suck what's left out
Because i walk around with my head cut off
And i have the never happy disease
Nowadays my smile is so fake that ive forgotten how a
real one feels
And p.s. I'm leaving you out
The darker it gets- the more awake i am
I like to listen to someone else screaming about
the love they had, about the love they lost
I like to skip meals and feel sorry for myself
cuz you know every bad situation ive ever been in has
come from my own two hands
and i think so will the end
I pretend to say what i mean to the people that i pretend i love
But really i dont feel that way towards anyone except...
well, i would mention it, but im leaving you out this time
More and more now i find myself trying to run away
i used to be great at facing things and latley im just
like the rain slipping through my fingers
And you know most people wish for the things they want, while
im working on wanting the things ive wished for
I have an idea that its just part of life but i cant find the
instruction booklet and this is just a part i cant learn to handle
the part of leaving you out
I feel like right now i am unusually alone but thats
exactly where ive put myself and i like it but i dont
I want someone along for the ride but i wont ask, forgive me if
i dont believe in being vulnerable anymore
I used to be strong at facing things and latley I just pull
off one of my disappearing acts
And time hasnt changed anything but you know everything
changes in time
I wonder what shes hiding behind her back, I wonder if
i can call mine to what ive never had and maybe then I'll
remember what it was like
yeah but i forget how to be soft when ive grown so hard, I've
hit the bottom once too many but i saw what was there
and i never once wanted to live without you because its
been every moment now that i want my fingers slipping
through your hair and theres no use in trying to leave that out
cuz i was never great at holding things back and now i have
to fight for someone else and i may not win the war but
at least i'll finially be done with losing to myself
