I learned early
that love was a narrow doorway
you were supposed to walk through
straight, obedient,
eyes forward,
no wandering.
But then there was you—
not a doorway,
but a window I kept looking through
when no one was watching.
You laugh in colors
I was taught not to name.
You move like freedom
I wasn’t supposed to want.
And when you touched my arm that night,
just barely,
my soul startled
like a bird that realized
the cage was open.
I tell myself it’s nothing.
A phase.
A story that can stay unwritten
if I pray hard enough.
But in the quiet,
between the verses I recite
to keep myself “good,”
your name is the only hymn
my heart remembers
how to sing.