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That’s all I asked him when we got together.

He promised he would.

You see I have been hurt, but this hurts more than any other time before.

Longest relationship I have been in during my whole life.

I committed myself to this person.

He not only hurt me but my daughter and that pisses me off the most.

I’ve had my heart broken before but not my baby.

She shouldn’t have to feel abandoned because someone who she called dad because they were that close, chose to just go no contact.

Someone asked me if you were to call or come over would I talk to you or if we could be friends. I’m a good person but at this point in my life. The answer would be no. It is not in the best interest of mine and my daughter’s mental health and healing after you broke us to go back through the cycle with you again. We aren’t doing the placeholder/breadcrumb,  no actual place in your life or priority thing again.

I realized that for nearly 13 years I was nothing but a glorified long distance side chick. 

You’re  a private person. You don’t share things with a lot of people. 

Yet you checked me out military wise and everything else you could. 

You think I didn't know and find out. 

Come on, you aren’t the only one with connections in law enforcement,federal, and military.

I made excuses for you.

I tried to be there for you when you needed me. Only to be thrown away like I didn’t matter.

I tried to communicate. I offered space. I even offered a prenup since we had planned to get married. All I asked was for you to be careful with my heart. 

Now my heart is broken. Walls of trust for anyone and everyone are up. I am extremely skeptical and paranoid about everything and everyone. People say focus on healing. I don’t even know where to start to heal again. I have never felt this broken in my life.I don’t even have closure. 

It’s not okay but okay. You do you. I wish you nothing but the best in life. God will provide for me and my daughter. We are just fine. 

You had one simple request…be careful or rather gentle with my heart.